update
sorry i've been gone so long.
i have been depressed as hell since moving back to the u.s. last year from brazil. i miss living in a country where people and relationships are more important than money and power.
several things have occurred over the last year and a half that have served to remind me of the family i didn't have as a child and do not have now, beyond the family that i have created for myself. all of it brought up a tremendous sadness for me. lately, though, i have given up the pretense that i don't have family, because in truth i have the most amazing family one could want; it's just that few (none?) of the members of that family are related to me by blood. that realization left me wondering why i was still feeling so sad, and then i looked at all that has happened over the last year, and it made sense: the year was a never-ending series of those kind of reminders. so finally i am coming out of the depression, while still probably not completely out of the water ...
also, i have decided not to publish any more chapters of my memoir here. why should i give my book away for free? so, no more of that - but hopefully lots more blog entries, including about the events of the last year.
i've missed you, and i hope that you've missed me, too. :-)
